Lost.

     One word that would describe my first day back to school would be, LONG. This morning feels like it was ten years ago. I am so incredibly exhausted. I didn't die, so that's good. Today was pretty okay. It was better than I thought it would be.

        Walking down the hallways, all day, I saw people who just looked lost. Not just the occasional Freshman with their head in their schedule looking for a room number, but people I see everyday. Some were lost in themselves. All they were concerned about was how they looked, who was looking, how awesome their first day of school outfit was, among many other things. They could barely look up long enough from their mirrors or their phones to see the things in life that truly matter.

      Others were lost in the world's expectations. They feel like they have to live up to this image, or they don't matter. They feel like they have to be someone that others feel is worthy of friendship. They don't act like themselves because they feel like they aren't good enough. They want to win the affections of the people around them, when in reality, they are enough.

     Some were lost in the shuffle. They walk down the hallway looking at the floor. They feel beaten down. They feel as if nobody notices them. They feel invisible. They are sad because they are all alone, with no one to go to. No one to confide in. They have no one to love them for them. They are just lost in the shuffle of life. Thrown in and forgotten about.

     I think we have all been lost at one point in our lives. We may not have even noticed how lost we were. We just think that we are living life. Some of us have been so lost that we don't think that we can bear it anymore and just quit. We think, "Nobody cares. So why bother?" But quitting just buries us in our lostness. It keeps us from ever being FOUND.

For the Son of Man came to seek and save the lost. (Luke 19:10)

           Even when we feel alone and lost in this crazy world, we can trust God to find us. We are his beloved children and he wants us. He has CHOSEN us. No matter how lost we get, he will always find us. No matter what.

I will give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. (John 10:28)

Numero Uno.

       So... This is my first blog post. This blog if anything, is a place for me to let out my frustrations, joys, and sadness, along with my ADD thoughts. So if you're reading this, go for it. Be enlightened. If you're not... then whatever. Do your thing.

       I'm going back to school soon, and I can't say that I'm excited about it. I feel like that scared little kindergarten kid crying in a corner, except that I'm a Junior in High School. (Okay maybe it isn't that serious...) But seriously, I'm not ready to go back. The exhaustion from school mixed in with crazy, girly emotional swings just makes it UNBEARABLE. Sometimes it's hard to just stop and breathe. Sometimes everything is so chaotic, and my mind is racing making it IMPOSSIBLE to sleep, so I just lay there and cry. But here's the cool thing, the game changer. My God is with me ALWAYS. No matter how crazy it gets, no matter how unbearable I think my life may be, God is there. He lets me stop and breathe. 

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. (Exodus 14:14)

       God has put me in these situations for a reason. I may not be able to comprehend those reasons at the moment... But there are reasons nonetheless. He has put me here on this world, in this town, in this home, to be his light in the darkness. He has put me here to bring honor and glory to him. He has put me here to bring people to him. Because people need him. This world needs him. All the way from Peru, to Costa Rica, to Uganda, and to this little town in Texas. 

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. (Matthew 28:19-20)

       God is going to be with me everywhere I go. He is my father and he loves me. He is going to be with me during the happiness and the laughter as well as the sadness and the tears. He is going to help me grow into the woman he wants me to be. He may have to put me through the flames to do that, but there will be beauty from ashes. With him, I will overcome. But sometimes to do that, you need to just stop and breathe.

I have told you these things so that you may have peace in me. In this world you will have trouble, but take heart! For I have overcome the world. (John 16:33)